So...I was contemplating whether or not to post again...but here I am...again with the daunting empty pages....but now I've come to realize...who cares if I fill them or not, who cares if people read this or not. This is my release, my out, love it or leave it..it's your choice alone.
So since my last post I have tried to "scratch my itch" with no success.
My first partner after I split with my ex...we'll call him "Mike"..I've known him for awhile through my truck club...he was married, I was in a relationship. We both are recently single and started talking again through our truck site. Just bullshitting at first, then it got to the sexual stages. We decided to hook up, have dinner see where it goes from there. I go up to his hotel room and the doors open. He's kickin back in the chair and there was that awkard first date type vibe going on. I put my bag down and hug him. Now to give you a physical description of him....He's older, 39, military type haircut, toned and in shape, mustache and goatee, huuuuuge cock (but we'll get to that later)....
We end up going to dinner at a reallllly niice restaurant. Talked about BS for a few hours, ate...grabbed some ice cream afterwards. We go back to the hotel room and I lay on the bed (I may be submissive but if I know a guy is into me I am anything but shy)....I keep hoping he would just grab me and kiss me....but nothing...So i tell him I don't bite....He comes and sits on the bed with me....Us still talking...I get up and take off my vest im wearing....and my pants (in an excuse to get comfy) which I really shouldn't need at this point...He wants to fuck my brains out and I want him to....
He then realizes "OH CRAP, I HAVE A HOT HALF NAKED WOMAN HALF MY AGE WHO WANTS ME TO RAVAGE HER." and you may ask what he does about this realization....a whole lot of nothing... We strip, makeout, i suck his cock (which i love doing) for about 45 minutes, him dripping from it...my pussy aching at this point from having no attention to it....He lays me flat and slips his fingers inside my now dripping wet pussy... (now just a clue...if a guy fingers me roughly as in pounding me with his fingers...all it would take is a flick of the tongue on my clit to make me explode) Im thinking this guy is going to be outstanding, he's older, experienced, has said he likes it a little rough....anddddd nothing...he stops, slips inside me and proceeds to slam into me for like 15 minutes....he rolls over and said okay i need a break....
We lay there for about 30 minutes before he freaking ASKS me to bend over and ASKS me if its okay to do anal....Im thinking be a fuckin MAN....Tell me to bend over for you...tell me how you're going to slide inside my tight ass....Be my master, be my everything....I was sadly dissapointed.....I took a shower after that, masturbated thinking of how my dream guy would be in there with me commanding me to wash him, then to lick him clean while he watches me do it.....How my master would command me to bend over the edge of the tub so I can recieve my spanking, so he can redden my tight ass before he slides in....
I get out...get dressed and tell him thanks for a great time....Once again it was there on a mental level but just not there sexually....I don't even need a boyfriend...I need a master....But will I ever find one? I though that maybe this would be the guy...but now after all of my unsuccesful tries in search of him, I believe I'll know my master the instant I see him. Because he'd have that look in the eye like the only thing he was thinking about was claiming me and my body for himself, to make me his.
So since my last post I have tried to "scratch my itch" with no success.
My first partner after I split with my ex...we'll call him "Mike"..I've known him for awhile through my truck club...he was married, I was in a relationship. We both are recently single and started talking again through our truck site. Just bullshitting at first, then it got to the sexual stages. We decided to hook up, have dinner see where it goes from there. I go up to his hotel room and the doors open. He's kickin back in the chair and there was that awkard first date type vibe going on. I put my bag down and hug him. Now to give you a physical description of him....He's older, 39, military type haircut, toned and in shape, mustache and goatee, huuuuuge cock (but we'll get to that later)....
We end up going to dinner at a reallllly niice restaurant. Talked about BS for a few hours, ate...grabbed some ice cream afterwards. We go back to the hotel room and I lay on the bed (I may be submissive but if I know a guy is into me I am anything but shy)....I keep hoping he would just grab me and kiss me....but nothing...So i tell him I don't bite....He comes and sits on the bed with me....Us still talking...I get up and take off my vest im wearing....and my pants (in an excuse to get comfy) which I really shouldn't need at this point...He wants to fuck my brains out and I want him to....
He then realizes "OH CRAP, I HAVE A HOT HALF NAKED WOMAN HALF MY AGE WHO WANTS ME TO RAVAGE HER." and you may ask what he does about this realization....a whole lot of nothing... We strip, makeout, i suck his cock (which i love doing) for about 45 minutes, him dripping from it...my pussy aching at this point from having no attention to it....He lays me flat and slips his fingers inside my now dripping wet pussy... (now just a clue...if a guy fingers me roughly as in pounding me with his fingers...all it would take is a flick of the tongue on my clit to make me explode) Im thinking this guy is going to be outstanding, he's older, experienced, has said he likes it a little rough....anddddd nothing...he stops, slips inside me and proceeds to slam into me for like 15 minutes....he rolls over and said okay i need a break....
We lay there for about 30 minutes before he freaking ASKS me to bend over and ASKS me if its okay to do anal....Im thinking be a fuckin MAN....Tell me to bend over for you...tell me how you're going to slide inside my tight ass....Be my master, be my everything....I was sadly dissapointed.....I took a shower after that, masturbated thinking of how my dream guy would be in there with me commanding me to wash him, then to lick him clean while he watches me do it.....How my master would command me to bend over the edge of the tub so I can recieve my spanking, so he can redden my tight ass before he slides in....
I get out...get dressed and tell him thanks for a great time....Once again it was there on a mental level but just not there sexually....I don't even need a boyfriend...I need a master....But will I ever find one? I though that maybe this would be the guy...but now after all of my unsuccesful tries in search of him, I believe I'll know my master the instant I see him. Because he'd have that look in the eye like the only thing he was thinking about was claiming me and my body for himself, to make me his.
"I took a shower after that, masturbated thinking of how my dream guy would be in there with me . . . ".
ReplyDeleteThat kinda says it all, right there! ;-) Having to masturbate to satisfy yourself, even though there's a guy just on the other side of the door.
Personally, I would have welcomed the idea of you masturbating, by the way. But I would have made you do it in front of me, right there on the bathroom floor. And made you ask permission before you could cum.
Great post! I'm glad you're back.
Riff..You are completely right.
ReplyDeleteAnd WOW..where have YOU been all my life? I would gladly do that...Masturbate in front of you..knowing how much you love watching me..and knowing that even though it's not you inside me or getting me off, you still have complete control over my body.